i feel abit...

i feel stupid.
i feel like i should be studying for the test tomorrow..
i know.. people are shouting at me saying 'its a practical test! u cant read books on those!'
true.. so i hope to drag my mums car out..
but the clutch is sooo scary..
so.. in me head.. this is what my motto is..
if i fail.. i just gotta re-do it!
and waste more money paying for the test.
so i will be able to drive one day.. i might be flat broke.. but at least i would be able to drive!
i still have today to end tho!
oh please just bring on the test!

so people.. cross fingers and pray for me!
i need all the luck in the worrrlllddd!

This is classic!

so, we're in the era of the youtube.
this music video shows u how important.. heck, how we made these 'normal' people into mini celebrity.
personally, the history of dance guy is my favourite!!!



Weezer- Pork and Beans

Attack of the Orang Utan!

well.. the camera actually worked today!!!
so here it is.
no, laugh
laugh ure heart out
i seriously dont mind.
we need to laugh.. the petrol prices are killing us, so we need some enjoyment.
laugh at the orang utan hair.
coz dammm!
dont i look like one?

i swear, DIY kit are just nasty!!

anyway.. hams.. have a good flight
will hopefully talk to u when ure in the airport!

but now, iam off to make me lunch.. :)
some mash, salad and sausages!
i loveeeeeeeee!

DIY botch job

so,
in life i have learn quite a few things.
one of em, when ever ure bored, stay away from ure parents land line phones, and stay away from any DIY colourant or highlites kit.
u WILL, i insist, u WILLLLLL run a huge phone bill calling every single soul u know, and u WILLLLL do a botch job on ure hair.

i did them both.
i mean.. the calling every single soul i know.. i do em every week.
the latter one, yesterday.
oh boy, its so bad, even my camera couldnt be switch on to capture the horror of what happened. (thats another story all together!)

so yes, my hair resembles.. errrhhh.. i dunno.. lions mane?
i still have me black as the base. but all over the top.. its 'chocolate swirls'
thats what the box said!
but its more like.. goddam golden/blonde kinda thing!

so yes.. pictures rite?
i was up to it.. i was all excited to show the world WHAT NOT TO DO, when the camera just went.. *beep, beep, beep*
OUT OF BATTERY.
i know i know.. it does that..
well.. with mine.. it basically does it EVERY TIME i try to switch it on.
i have one of those re-chargeable AA batteries that goes in em.. and it doesnt matter how many days u actually charge em.. the moment u put it in the camera.. it still says.. low battery.
i even bought new ones..
i surrender...
i do..

so, imma charge me battery again..try and get the camera going.. and show the world.. what a crap hairdresser iam :)

happy days!

its me off day again tomorrow..
thank the lord i have no more dodgy DIY things laying around..
so, baking it is!!!

and i can have a lie-in! :)
heaveeeennn!

have a good day folks!

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humankind are nasty species!!!!!

And she shines just like a star!

iam cheating aren't I?
i just fill the post up by embedding loads and loads and loads of video.
but then again..thats what ive been doing.
digging up old videos on you-tube..
but.. this is the song thats in me head, day and night, 24-7!!!!


Neyo- Closer

i love this song, its edgy smooth rnb-ish...
people compare him to chris brown.
dont ask me why.. i mean.. yes they are probably the 2 players in the field rite now.
young, musically talented, dance-god,a hella good fashion sense and man, those beats, i mean.. it just doesnt make by itself.
but, after saying that, Neyo gig is much much much better than chris brown.
more substance than flash...
but then again, who am i to be saying all this?

Gossip girl is yummy-licious...
the clothes, to die for.
its sex and the city for kiddies... i mean.. modern world :)
but no one can take sex and city away from me! thats just pure love...
i miss sham.. i miss her laughing.. and saying.. shiiiidaaaahhhhh..

hams: good luck for ure paper tomorrow.
do not let history repeat itself.
and i cant wait to sit and chat with u about nonsense!! :)

i think i need to build up my immune system.
iam getting the sty in me eyes.. AGAIN!
and the body is aching as if i was just ran over by a monster truck.
and i dreamt of paiville and anna yesterday.
heh, thats me being random....

allrite then ladies and gents,
that me off to bed...

have a good, oh my god... was just about to say thursday!
but its ffffffrrrriiiiiiiiiiidddddddddaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
WHAT? the weekend is upon us?
hell, that was quick wasnt it?

repeats and repeats and repeats....

the month is slowly crawling along isnt it?
day in day out, its work, sleep, eating, shop, walks, shop, work, sleep...
and on and on and on and on...
i remember calling paiville at the start of the year and complaining to her..
'i feel so useless.doing nothing with my life'
and she said 'rashi! its only January!'

so June is here, and July is around the corner.
what have i done?
final year with uni is under way.
driving test is nearing.
boredom is always present.
work is gradually building.
iam taking it all in.iam happy.
iam content.
iam good.
iam sensible.
iam doing all i can to make this life bearable.
i dont think iam doing bad.

Gosia told me today, she wants to have a baby.
she wants to get married, have a family and just grow old.
she said she wants all this because she is old.
she is 24 years old.
i told her why not earn money and travel the world.
she said 'i want someone to take care of me'

i suppose, there is nothing wrong with that. its sexist for me to say this, but i think its natural. women feels after a certain age (after getting married), they would be taken care of by their husband, and its the husbands duty to be the provider.

But, would i want that? certainly not. that is not me. Iam worrying to much about the future, its actually scary.
why is it scary? i do not want to regret.
all around me, people are regretting their life decisions.
'why didnt i complete school?'
'i should have learnt a skill'
'i shouldnt have done that'

i do not want, years down the line,sitting in some strange place i call home, regretting my youth life.
i should not be worrying about all this.
there are other people who are in a worse predicament.
i should not worry.

yes i shouldnt..
final term will be here in a jiffy
just enough time to pass the test.
and just enough time to spend my time with the big bro.

honestly, i worry myself to much.

to cheer me up, ive youtube-d a couple of live lounge sessions.
what is live lounge?
well, basically, radio one dj, Jo Whiley host this Live sessions.
they usually performs one of their own song, and the do a cover. its always a joy to guess who's gonna be be covering who....
bands and singers huddle up in a small studio in Maide Vale, performs, and gets praised.
win win situation isnt it?
some of the covers are brilliant, some just doesnt work.
listen,dont judge.

ps: my grammar today is absolutely dreadful!
i need sleep!



Lupe Fiasco-Superstar



The fray-Hips dont lie (shakira)
you can hear towards the end, they're just mumbling em words!
hilarious!



the Hoosiers- LoveStoned (Justin timberlake)


Daniel Bedingfield-Somebody told me (The killers)


Newton Faulkner-Foundations (Kate Nash)

weeeeekkkkeeennnnddddd!

we hope it would be sunny.
we hope we would get out of the house at 8.30 am.
we hope that we would go around Brighton and be home by 4pm.
We didnt get all our wishes, but the day was a fantastic day out.
got more than we bargained for.

played ice hockey, skiing,portrait making and car racing game. well, it was an arcade. so u guys know what iam talking about.
ate fish and chips by the sea, almost got attacked by a blooddddyy bird, trying to steal me chips away!
bought some fantastic clothes, damm, i got sommmeee good bargain!
found perfect sunnies for myself and the brother. well, i didnt really need a new one.. but hey, why not :)

it was a lonnnggg day, but a happy day.

how was your weekend?

Showing how funky and strong is your fight.

i mean..
the song itself is banging..
Michael Jackson's 'Beat it'
but Fall out Boys's version is sooooo..
hmm..whats the word? head banging!
i mean.. after a bloody hard day... hearing it.. it keeps u going..


it was a lousy day today.. rain rain and more rain..
but the family decided on a trip to the coast this weekend :)
should be fun... sun sea sand..
i mean.. possible sun, cold sea and hard rocks.. but hey
u cant always get what u want!

i miss paivi.
i miss anna.
i miss the way we use to plan ridiculous things.. and take ages to do it..
but we do it eventually...
iam saving for a trip to Finland.
ive promised her, and i dont break promises :)

paivi, as u know.. i fancy snow.. and cow milking.. and tractor driving.. and sheep shearing..
and i got a hell of a surprise for u!!
a hell f a surprise!

:)

Sunday Nite

oh lordy lordy lordy lordy..
things has been happening heh?

first up, whats up with the weather?
bloody rain and gloom all week.. and today!
pooofft!
the sun couldnt stop shining..
well.. yes.. that's was Ive been wanting.. but it got a bit tooo hot today!!
nasty!
smelly armpits!!!
oh yeah..i cant be satisfied.

and a whole lotta things happened this week..
the big bro is here... euro 08 started, fear of driving test is gripping me slowly.. and having to battle another on-coming eye infection.
i think its the heat.. and the dust.. This is what i hate..
rite.. uve been cleaning ure car/room/living room/kitchen/work desk a the whole shebangs.. then.. u wake up the next morning.. the dust has settled back to its usual place!
tell me.. how do we get rid of dust.. ONCE AND FOR ALL!
last Thursday, on me day off.. i went the whole hog a did a spring clean... just me tiny lil room...
i threw, 2 big black rubbish bag, 2 big black rubbish bag worth of clothes.. a bag of books.. and a bag of shoes! :s

yep... the whole lot.. well.. to be fair.. i didnt really throw em away.. i gave it to charity shops around the area..welll.. one person's crap is another person's treasure.. whatever.. as long as it is on me my room!

there was great promises of picnics and a game of badminton today..but.. the food got to us.. and the footie was on..heh, and i fell asleep.. but iam enjoying this life.. the presence of big bro makes a difference in our daily like.. its kinda like how it was in malaysia.. a sense of familiarity.. brought him to the supermarket for the bloody 10000th time! ANNNNDDD! biggest event ever!! i drove from me house to work!!! well.. not alone.. with me mum as a passenger! but i drove!! its a start isnt it?

oh.. this is going to be an interesting week
perhaps, i should write more..
but i dont know, i dont see the fun in it anymore..
maybe i just cant be bothered..
and thats not nice...

but, have a good week people!

the moment of truth!

i love it when it allll goes to plan!
my forte now is surprising people.
and today, i did it.. to me mum..

poor old mum...
she thought iam having my friend over here for a month..
well.. nope.. not really..
this so called friend happened to be my brother!
the pictures explains everyyytthhinngg...

yes yes.. i love it when everything goes to plan...

ps: blogger is being an ass.. cant load it up.. shall update later!

have a good weekend everyyboooddyyyy

isnt it a wonder

i dont feel like i have anything to say.
nothing out of the ordinary has been happening.
iam just waiting..
waiting for that parcel to come..
waiting for that day to come..
waiting for the decision to be made..
waiting for the prices to drop..
waiting for anna to say, 'lets go'
waiting for my senses to say 'bloody spring clean is needed'

iam just waiting..
i opened my eyes, and it is already june.
6 months into 2008, and i feel like i havent accomplished ANYTHING.
then i reminded myself.
what is the rush?

slowly, but surely.
maybe iam impatient.
i always want/need things to be done quickly.
and i despise people with no common sense.
truly do.

what brought up all this bitchiness?
lazy people.
lazy people at me work place.

since there is no excitement, i think i ought to create some.
i feel like travelling.
and i need to visit a certain friend.
and keep my promise to her.
and i always stand by my promise.

pray pray, the tickets are cheap
pray pray, that the bosses will agree.
pray pray, that if it does not happen, there must be a reason for it all

hell, iam positive arent i?

.................speechless....................

i feel like a bee..
flying here, there and everywhere..
day and nite.
well.. maybe not nite.
but buzzing around nonetheless.

iam knackered.
absolutely knackered!
and whiny people piss me off.
they take the piss and i feel like punching the lights outta em.

i need a good nite sleep.