its the spring downfall...

so, ive been pining for the radio one big weekend.
i didnt get it.
nope.. i wasnt the chosen one.
iam gutted, absolutely gutted
iam thinkin.. what was the reason? hell knoes.. its totally at random.. so my name just didnt come up
then i went off the the fan site.
okey, breathe, coz some of the fans actually live opposite/next to the venue and they didnt get picked tooo.. thats how random the fan selection was..
so i aint blaming..

there must be a reason.. everything happened for a reason.
maybe iam suppose to sit at home and go over me assignment, since the next day is my presentation....

okey, enough about that! iam gonna be depressed...

the weather has been fantastic, then the doom and gloom came..
its suppose to be spring.. but rite now, its feeling like the english summer.. no.. not hot sun.. rainy days!

iam envisioning the business class on some of the airlines.. iam thinkin... emirates, qatar and singapore airline.. i mean.. the A380 economy is enough to make anyone go.. wooooaaaahhhhhh!!! i wanna fly on that, but, the ticket price was what? £750 that is like.. murderrrrr!!!
i dont earn that much u know..
so.. do any of you work on the A380 singapore airline?

been having weird dreams lately.. not surprising.. since i ALWAYS have weird dreams..
but lately.. its been.. hmmm.. emotionally weird..
baah!

its a quiet wednesday, and iam just hurrying along with the assignments..

yep, iam positive!

but....

i adore spring.. but,
why is it, every time u open up a window, a bloody bee comes flying in?
and bloody stays in ure room till the sun dont shine?
WHY!!

blergh!
nope, positive.. positive!

iam having such a marvelous time doing my coursework actually.. iam beyond excited, its finishing soon, but another headache can be foreseen since, i have already passed the word limit, and i have basically.. 3 pages to add to that. well, nobody said it was easy! I dont have classes tomorrow, its suppose to be study break, but i think most of us is treating it as assignment day.

nothin much in the news today. i mean, the same old tax debate, footie, crime, london mayoral campaign... bla bla bla..
but, the sun is shining, and the breeze is heavenly.
its a spot of badminton tomorrow.
yes, retro.
who cares?

i tend to say the F word quite alot lately. i do not know why.

blergh.

Big weekend ticket winner will be announced this thursday and friday.. i dont think i can wait that long.. the anticipation is killing me.

nitey nite all..
to hammy, have fun in budapest.
its good for your soul :)

on an ordinary saturday!~

iam feeling very positive now..

i mean... brushing my teeth this morning made me realize... no matter how much i complain about my work, life, studies, it will never be better if i dont do anything about it.

sometimes its easier for us to blame people or to whinge about things than actually doing something about it.

called the family today, and its weird telling them our plans today.. and them telling that they're off to a wedding tomorrow.. that life seem familiar to me, eventho iam not living it...

i have a couple of summer plans, and iam crossing my fingers. i found my passion, travelling and iam not gonna let it go.

i made a promise to myself, go to places people dont go, fly to airports that people have never heard of. abit hard, since its europe and everybody has heard about all the possible tourist places here..

iam pondering more and more about life, and why are we here. its called growing up maybe. the brother told me he is moving house, and talked about furnishing the house. iam envious as hell, coz at this moment, there is nothing better than talking about making a place ure home. i have ambitions, and to achieve it takes time. iam not a patience person. i do expect things to come at a click of a finger, and when that doesnt happen, i get frustrated.. so, i have to be patience i guess..

the driving lesson is coming along slowly..and so is the studies.. whats wrong with it? its teaching me to be patience. no matter how good i drive, i still have to bloody check me blind spot heh!!

iam off to malaysia in september, for Eid. iam excited beyond words. why? coz i do miss my 3rd brother. i mean., yes, the others too.. but him, i miss.. he wasnt with us last yr when the others was here celebrating eid. and he wasnt with the family when we were in spain. it was sweet of my 1st bro to send him a barcelona postcard from msia itself. i guess this is how it is.. we depend on them when we were kids.. go off with our own friends when we were in our teens., and finally, find the family back again by your side when ure an adult. and this adulthood made me realize, it doesnt matter who i become, family is always by my side. i always told david, if i won a million dollar, i wouldnt keep it to myself. a house, bungalow mind u for each member of me family, pay off my brothers scholarships, pay off any credit cards they have, put aside some money for em in their banks, and splurge some on meself. a house, a car, a bloody room of manolo's, splurge abit on me girlfriends, and stash some in the bank.

i havent mention charity heh? well.. i aint gonna give it to them (boooooooooooooooooo!) instead, i will prolly build schools and clinic in villages that cant afford it. there are still some communities in msia that is having this problem. yes, malaysia, considered a wealthy country in asia. its a sad state in the world today.

its been a sobering week this week. i now look forward to small things in life. how relaxing its gonna be on 20th may. when the semester is finish and we are off to enjoy summer holiday.

iam growing, and iam happy.

iam happy.

iam positive.

iam happy.

yes, iam trully happy.

ps: i love spring, but the bees that are around is bugging me!

sssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

the blog is slowly being ignored heh?
iam just so tired of doing the assignments.. i dont need to be typing up my day's event in the blog.
the thing that made me even more pissed, is this particular lecturer that i have. he doesnt help us with the assignments, not even one nut. and worst of all, when we ask him for guidance, he says, 'iam very busy guys, cant help u' and his definition of busy? playing POOL in the student lounge.

FUCK U IF I FAIL MY SUBJECT

hm, that does feel better.

iam off for a healthy breakfast. today is 'strap yourself to the chair and do your assignment, no matter what' day.
even if the house is burning.
now, thats what i call commitment.

its a weird one today...

its been a hectic but quiet week this week.. does that make sense?
i mean.. work was hectic, diana was down for the week and school is just.. well.. school..
assignment is literally topping up, but iam still as nonchalant as ever.. yeah.. imma get it done.. TOMORROW!!!!

yes, i have a disease, and its called procrastinating.. i procrastinate.buzz off!!

phone call to home today got me excited beyond the universe, and iam like..itching to finish off this term!!!i have so many plans.. but so little time and money to complete it..life is pretty unfair, but u gotta deal with it..
whatever..

ok.. i must be OOOOOFFFFFF
i need to get the assignments started... its a MUST this week..
its on me list of things to do..

fark it.. life is pretty mundane
i need me a new adventure!

Bloody hell mate!~

This thing will potentially kill me. and iam not kidding.
iam not meant to be seating in front of the computer 10 hrs a day.
this 2 months is gonna be nuts, but april is gonna be over in 2 weeks time, so i dont have time to worry about time heh? (got it?)

so, as u all are well aware, this is the month where students all over the world are crapping in their pants, because its this time of the year when all the assignments are due, and exams are just around the corner. we got by, yes we do, but we dont know nuts bout what we're doing.
so there u go, u get by and u get by..

i have 2 assignments due for completion. lets not mention the presentation.. coz i have no freaking idea how imma gonna finish that! and of all the time of the year for the work place to get a new system/software in, they got it in this week. i was suppose to hoover around, but i ended up doing the whole training. fark it.

and i realize, its not just students that sit quietly and get by.. its the same things with adult.. they pass the buck, and just quietly sit back and u got it,. get by each month. in my head rite now, there is 2 ppl in me work place that doesnt deserve to be working. not because of incompetence, but commence sense is just.. lost on em.

and as david told me, common sense is the only one thing u cant teach ure staff. true enough.

and this couldnt be more clearer in the apprentice. oh lord, claire is.. THE BITCH of the show. nuff said. Alex is a bloody wuss, and simon.. poor old simon. he is a grafter, thats why he could never survive in the business world. but it i was sir alan, i woulda sack the whole lot of the women's team. its all talk and no action with em. and with every conversation, its a cat fight breweing. oh lord, take a chill pill women!

rite, i think iam off to bed for now. this lifestyle is taking a toll on me. and iam not kidding. sometimes i wish i dont have to work. we all wish dont we?

and u know what is the saddest part? diana is down for the week, and i couldnt even sit and chat with her. not even a single call too. heck, i didnt even have time to get me lunch today. and when people take me for granted, that what piss me off.

rite, no complaining. POSITIVE!!

off to bed. hope u guys doing well with the studying and assignments :)

its the 200th post!

iam alive everyone, dont worry.
adulthood sucks!

ps: alan, where is the phuket pictures? load em up!!

musical sunday.

Newton Faulkner-i need something.



Sam Sparrow- Black and Gold

the fish swam out of the ocean
and grew legs and they started walking
and the apes climbed down from the trees
and grew tall and they started talking

and the stars fell out of the sky
and my tears rolled into the ocean
now i'm looking for a reason why
you even set my world into motion

'cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold
black and gold
black and gold

i looked up into the grey sky
and see a thousand eyes staring back
and all around these golden beacons
i see nothing but black

i feel a way of something beyond them
i don't see what i can feel
if vision is the only validation
then most of my life isn't real

'cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold
black and gold
black and gold

the reason ive put up the lyrics is coz i got confused when i 1st heard this song. i thought it was a club tune u know. then he came on radio one live lounge, and he explained that it was about god.
reading it, i completely understand what he is saying. revelation.

ps: check out his cover of estelle's american boy. i n my humble opinion, rocks more than the original.

it cant be that bad..

the pain is mind numbing..
i think for the first time in my life, i need to take painkillers.
i need milk!

Magical wonder

now, dontcha just love spring?
i know i do ! :)

ps: by the way, the sun only came out at 7.30, just in time for it to pop back in. summer's gonna be banging!

HAPPY MONDAY EVERYONNNNEEEE!!

friday nite musical!

this song has been in me head for like.. a month now. and the video is crazy hilarious.


Panic at the disco-nine in the afternoon

i think i need to be serious about my assignments.
but i just cant. what is it with homework? blergh.


Panic at the disco-I write sins not tragedies.

oh lord, this song, ive been tryin to look for it on the Internet.. i couldn't remember who sang it or the title of the song.. so what did i do? i google'd a line from the song.
'the poor groom's bride is a whore'
hahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahaha
its so funny, even the invisible minion beside me is on the floor laughing.

diana, me senorita friend is coming down to visit us here in the land of sunshine in 2 weeks time.
iam dead excited, but i'll be swamped with assignments, uni, work, driving.,. kept telling the boss..
'iam positive, no u dont need to give me holidays for now'

little does he knoe, iam asking holidays in june :)
i thinks it would be a fantastic time to visit paivi. who knoes.. i might pop to other countries like bulgaria :)


all american rejects-dirty little secret.

i think this is epitome of humankind.
u think u know someone, but u have no idea.

*hums the song to bed*

a few random stuff..

the programs in the telly is buzzing at the moment..
the latest instalment of the apprentice is back. Jenny has proved herself as the bitchy one, aka.the latest katie!!
simon is a propa grafter, it will be interesting how he leads his team.
its hilariously awful to hear em speak about themself like they are!
the words wont stop. example of lines include :

iam the best.
no on is better than me.
my marketing skills will put google to shame
iam the best sales rep in the europe.


bla bla blaaaaa.. shut up already about ureself and do some work.
all talk and no action!

watching the series i just realize something about myself.
at work, iam a perfectionist (not praising myself, but the truth, ask the boss)
when something needs to be done, i sit down and do it. i dont leave it to the last minute.
i just wish the same can be said about assignments!! blergh.
and also i realize, i work much easier/better with boys.
no, its the truth. maybe its because.. the boys get it done u know.
the gals sit there, talk talk talk.. and mind u not one person talks at one time.. but a whole lot million of em talk at the same time. so its like..
who do i need to listen to?this will sound sexist to the ear of some people, but to hell with the lot of ya!
the emotion ALWAYS comes into play with women at work. i did ask me boss about this, he said the same thing. altho worryingly, he said this, 'rashi, ure the best worker here, but pls dont take more holidays'
nothing wrong u might say. well.. i have an itsy bitsy problem...
i have 3 holiday plan lined for this year.
europe, asia, america.

interesting....

nvm.
and also, DR WHO is bacccckkkk..
this saturday with david tennant and catherine tate.
she is the latest assistant, and then it made me wonder, y didnt freya stayed for the latest series? my guess is, coz she didnt capture the heart of the audience. i didnt like her, i mean, i didnt hate her, but she seriously got on me nerves int he last series.
so yes, donna (catherine tate) is reunited with the doctor in the latest series. she was in the xmas special, and she was hilarious. and this might be david tennants last series.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

another program that i want to share with u guys is 'the no 1 ladies detective agency'
Jill scott plays Precious Ramotswe who is the as u guess is, the no 1 ladies detective agency. Precious inherited several things for her dead father, so what she did was move to the capital and opened up the agency. she hired a secretary grace, who is sooo professional, she even typed up the conversations between her and Precious. Business was slow at first, but slowly but surely, people started coming in. there was the wife who wanted to find out if the wife was cheating, kidnapping case, and also a women who thinks that her father isnt her real father. the drama was directed by late Anthony Minghella who did The English Patient so the whole set-up was just brilliant.
it is set in botswana, and the scenery was just beautiful. the people in the drama was delightful too and the accent, was like.. weird because.. it was the Queen's english spoken in an accent. It is actually a novel, but they have turned it into an one off tv drama. but i heard a whole new series is coming our way in december *claps claps*

My my my, talking about me favourite thing in the world, the telly made me realize that breakfast time is approaching brunch time :)
iam off to watch Top Gear, call me a bloke, i do not care.
:)

toodles!

what's up doc!

the eye has gone own :)
but, iam still on antibiotics. *sigh*

got a card today.
which was the sweetest thing ever.
and it brighten up my day.
thank you hams!!!

atleast i have started on the assignemtns! :)
wooohhhooooooooooooooooooooo
so now, here i'am , just lazing around.

theres nothin much to write about actually. its all pretty boring.
semester break is here, but the 'alamak' group is meeting up for the assignemtsn.
we cool like that!~
submission is may, but with others to complete, iam shitting myself.
and i just had a glance at the calender, its blooodddy APRIL!
and since iam stuck at home, no april fool prank! :)

this song is stuck in me head.



Black Kids- Iam not gonna teach your boyfriend how to dance!

enjoy!