Happy Diwali

I am sitting here talking to hammy and seeing how happy she is to receive gifts from home just reminds me that, deep down, we all want to be remembered and appreciated.

I sometimes feel I am not appreciated, and i do things to make people happy, without them knowing how much trouble i have gone thru in order to help them out/to make them happy. I am not asking for a medal/prize/money.. I just wish that human beings would see that not all things are bad and not everything is gloomy. I then wonder and ask myself, 'why do u help out?' and over and over again, i would say.. 'imagine being in their shoes'

I talked to a Ezu recently about how we always put ourselves in the other person shoe...and this aint good coz we cant lash out on em! We feel the pity, we feel the sorrow and oh goodie, its all back to.. 'oh gosh.. what would i do if i was in his/her position'
and as ezu said.. 'i wish someday i could just stop being a grown up an do something unreasonable'

I am a people pleaser. This is something i have realize, and iam in the same boat with hammy. It aint good and it aint healthy! people tend to use u. but what can u do? when u do something for someone the basis of friendship, u cant do it half heartily. i know i cant.

but then again, i have had amazing friends that do things for me. Oh gosh! the amount of time they pull up at my house, bringing me out to dinner/party/days out/nites out/chill time and not once complaining about it! i mean, i have amazing friends!
and with this blog as a witness! next round of driving is on me..
now, if only i can convince my brothers to lend me their car...

i want to wish to all those who celebrate, HAPPY DIWALI!
it's the festival of lights, and may the lords light show u the way!

oh gosh, i can never be a good preacher!

ps: btw! why do soooooo many women find cockney accent sexy? Hold up, ignore that. Danny Dyer is definitely sexy!