Feeling blue.. *sniff sniff*

OH MY GOD!!!! ive been feeling soooo down and out and today, i figured out why. yes, iam about to go on a rant about the english weather, so for u who got sick of it, change the channel ( i mean.. go on with ure other onlining stuff)..its been raining, and cloud for the past.. i dunno.. week? we will be gettin this in the winter itself so why cant we get good summer weather? iam off on a strop then. its the bank holliday weekend. they forecast good sunny weather, but iam working!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. i hope it pours!!!! the hatred is unbearable.

It was freaking windy yesterday. i thought we had hurricane dean at one point. then i thought, we woulda been blown away if a hurricane came our way. Just saw the news and it says that about 3000 british tourist are stranded in cancun, and have no choice but to wait till the hurricane is over. Bless em, they flew away from england to get good weather, but instead, they got a hurricane. Off to blackpool then heh?

i love this place tho, i do :)

Paivi's been keeping in touch. we r plannin a holliday. cross fingers it happens. pls pls plssss pretty pls.

ive been youtube-ing all the old videos.. u know, damien rice, coldplay, third eye blind, train.. all em hits song in the year 2000 @ so.. just i dunno.. tryin to recapture old times. Ive been thinkin about my dad lately. If he was alive, would we move here? doubt it. i dont know actually.. coz i dont know him, per say. i just know him as DAD. strange isnt it. i knew he woulda said yes if i asked for money @ to go off for holliday, but if i asked, iam off to uni in.. i dunno.. the states @ england.. what he woulda said? yes? no? the whole family is going? AND this brings me to my brothers.. i love them i do. i wish we're still kids. when i was practically hangin around em 24/7. yes, i was a tomboy. so much so that when alan was accepted in uni, i cried to sleep. i mean, that what my mum said. i dunno, cant rememba. and i miss apiq and ecuan.i just want them to be happy, and i know they are :) i just miss the old times i guess. i miss being a kid.i didnt have the whole exprience. WHAT AM I GOING ON ABOUT!!! i cant be freaking emo-ing at midnite.

i.need.sleep
now


iam off to la la land
have a good day everyone.