i havent been honest,

This week is going to be a BIG week for me!
Iam starting a new job on Wednesday, but most importantly, 2morrow..
i need to be a grown up.

Mum is off to have a small operation, something to do with her 'wonky' shoulder.
so, i need to drive her there, stay with her, and see if she would need to be stay in the ward for the night.
Its grown up stuff because, at this moment in time,
i realize, its only me and her.
and when then, its just me that she is depending on.
i dont have my brothers to sort out things, heck, i dont even know what iam gonna do if she is staying overnite in the ward and me home alone for the nite.
scary.

but its okey, iam gonna be strong, and iam gonna be responsible.
because, iam the only one she have.

plus, i think its time we take care of the parents.
the day of them waking us up, sending us to school, collecting us from classes, sending us to tuition, bringing us to the doctors and washing our laundry is long gone.

iam a grown up.

ADULT.

rite, i can do this.. or, issit possible, iam just abit scared for her?
iam bit scared to wait in the hospital while the operation is going on.
what if it took longer than an hour? will my mind start thinking of terrible scenarios?

its ok.
i can do this.