confession....

dirty little secret:
i fear that i will never get married because iam tooo independent.

iam not ignoring..

ive been bad.
I have to clear things up now prolly.
i am sorry if some of u feel like ive been ignoring u.
i havent.
i havent had the time..
i know its always the same thing.. 'busy'
but.. iam busy!

i promise.. come January 19th..
iam all yours :)

but u wont catch me January 20th..
my dearest hammy will be here.. and god knows whats gonna happen then :)

song of the mo'

Iam loving the latest singles on the chart!
driving home after work, the darken roads and the music gives me serenity.
weird.
The song that is totally in my head is Kings of Leon's 'Use Somebody'
i cant embed the video here, coz its be disabled by request.
typical of Youtube!
blergh!

Beyonce 'If i were a boy'. that.. hmmm
i dont know actually.. i think its wrong for us to stereotype em boys as being what she said..
but then again.. its her words isnt it?

rite... so.. it Musical Sunday I guess...


The Killers - Human



Pink-So whAt
This song was out ages ago, but i only remembered to upload it today.
and goddam, the lyrics just.. thats me that!!!



The Fairytale of New York- The Pogues
You know christmas is here when the song is in the air


Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter
This song has been haunting me.. forever!


Ray LaMontagne - Trouble
This song is pure heart..

THis next song.. well, it is in the UK top singles chart for 2 weeks running..
Its leona lewis, covering snowpatrols 'run'.
but for the life of me, i still love the original.
a tribute i guess.. not like they're breaking up or nething :)




Its been a journey this year.
December brings me memories, i guess with the new year approaching, i tend to tick all my resolutions boxes.
Been on a huge journey this year. i hop next year will be better.
i dont have any resolution for the year 2009.
just to graduate and prolly be a good worker.
and travel.
yes, travel. i havent been doing that.

As i sit here listening to luther Vandross... i wonder how many people are in my situation..
what situation?
This smiling face that i put on, hiding a really heavy heart.
Being happy for the sake of other, cheering up when people are down.
and looking at your own shoulder to lift yourself up... because the thought of asking somebody for their minute is just unbearable.
dirty little secret: i still miss my father.Losing him meant that i had to grow up.
but i dont really want to. and i resent the fact that i had to grow up before i knew the way of the world.
but i guess, things couldve been worse.
i couldve ended up having a horrible mother and brothers.

so new year resolution 2009: Let go of the grief.

have a fantastic weekend people!

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TIRED!

MIND
BODY
SOUL


T.I.R.E.D

Some days...

Some days i think i have it easy..
on some days,i think iam the hardest working student in the world..
on other days, i think iam just lucky to be able to talk, read, write, walk, drive, and do all these normal things human do...

so today, i feel like iam the most tired looking staff on pay-roll.
Doing an Early shift on monday morning is not easy.
the body is not use to dealing with monday blues.
but nevermind, i woke up and battled the ice on the road..

got to work everything was fine and dandy...
BUT,
the body is tired. i havent had a day off in ages, with 5 days of work and 2 days with uni things...
nevermind, battle on...
so when somebody said to me 'oh cmon, smile!'
that ticked the hell out of me.
i smile every single second of the day, and at some single moment i didnt, its one of the managers that caught me looking glum and he made that statement.
piss off.
really.
piss off.

and my workmate told me she is scared of the owner (he was walking around today, so everybody was super efficient)
i told her 'bugger it. i know he pays me,but i work for him. so the respect should be mutual'

this is the one thing i do not understand about hotel owners.
ive seen a few of em, and god dammit!
they are such miserable soul!

lighten up!
yes, i know its a business and credit crunch is all the rage,
but when ppl see u a wee bit happy, they in turn will be happier!

i will not have my own hotel.
not if iam turned into one of 'them'

i will have my own company tho.
where the uniform wont ride up, and u can wear colourful shoes! :)

i wonder how my friends are coping with the working world...

oh, its cooollllddddddd!

there's ice everywhere.
and little dotty is cooollllddddddd...

issit a little bit weird that iam scared that my car gets cold at nite, so iam thinking of buying 'her' a 'blanket'?
i know.

I am weird.

oh my god..

A few days ago, the world woke up to nasty news coming from India.
Terrorism struck, and iam now left wondering with questions.

What happened finally? i know the hostages were freed.
but what about the terrorist?
Who were they?
How did the operate in such massive scales.
how many people were involved?
one thing that struck me about the hostage situation in the hotel was...
There they were, in a luxury hotel which looked like they had like what.. 10 11 floors?
so, if u were on 4th floor or summat, cant you escape by the fire exit? i mean, taking the lift was just plain stupid coz all the lift in the world has that annoying 'ping' sound thingy when the doors were open.
and if the terrorist did hold up the whole hotel, how many ppl were involve? i doubt there was only 5 terrorist holding up a 400 bedroom hotel.

and then it hit me, what if it happened at my work place?
at that moment, i started listing out my exit routes, and i find myself doing this every single time i hear about a catastrophe that has happened in the world.

so, the week ended with such massive questions about humankind.

and next week will be 'numb' week.
A whole week of, working, university, working, sleeping, thesis, working, university.

nevermind, 3 ore months till the end of student life :)