Inzane World

Give me a serious price? 100? euro? no? dirhams?

2009-07-13T04:49:00.003+01:00

Morocco was awesome-ness!

Iam still too tired to blog about it, since ive only landed about 4 hrs ago, ive unpacked but for some strange reason, i still cant sleep!Which is worrying because today iam off to sunderland, for my graduation ceremony tomorrow! oh god, please!

Too many jokes in my head, replaying over and over and over again.
I had such a blast, but the heat!! my god!!!
Pictures shall be up soon too, but who knows when!

and ive realized something.
Iam a luxury traveler.
nuff said.
shall elaborate more later.

'where u from? India? Pakistan? Afghanistan? Iraq? where where?'
'u like? i give u good price'
'oi oi.. u want henna? no? maybe later?'
'give me serious price, democratic price'

Sometimes, experiences like these teaches u about life.
teaches u about the world,
teaches u about your family,
teaches u about yourself
and mostly, it teaches u about humanity.

nite nite everybody

feeling anxious...

2009-06-18T00:32:00.002+01:00

oh wait,

Morocco drive on the right hand side?

oh oh, Em, i need to practice in your car! :)

and u can drive mine...just around the car park tho...

Iam feeling blue actually.. for no reason at all.
I keep saying i need a whole day of lazing around, and somehow when i actually do that, i feel sooo guilty for being lazy, so i make plans.. like.. loads of plans.
and jam pack it in one day..
i never learn..

anyways.. Friday is tranformers day. well, opening day anyway.
so iam off to the cinema. Saturday and Sunday is working day, and then!
one week away, is the arrival of the family :)

and then the week after that, Morocco!
god damm it, i need to buy a new camera.
my wonky one wont survive the trip iam afraid!

Btw, at the hotel today, was ascot lady day.
gorgeous summer dress and awesome hats!
when i grow up, thats who i want to be :)

but for now, i shall settle for awesome skirts and messy hair.

oh, haircut.
i. need. a . haircut!

i miss the family..

and bebecs, thanx for the girly day!
even if we overstuffed ourselves to the point of being sick :)
luv ya!

and it knocks you down...

2009-06-16T23:57:00.001+01:00

My girlies,
Have faith :)

Morrocco!

2009-06-10T20:13:00.002+01:00

I hate planning for a holiday.
the booking, and the googling just messes with my head.
even worse when ure doing it for ure family, i wish i have them by my side to help me make the decisions.
by god, how many hotels can u smack in one kilometers of sands?
1000 apparently.

ok, new tactic. pictures.
the more we like the pictures of the hotel, we shall stay.

one night in the dessert is a must.

Casablanca, ticked.
blue city, done.

ok, time to get a new camera, and a sat nav.

ive never seen my bank account so empty before.

iam as skint as ever, so i guess, its time to move some money around.
this is when u wish u had some long forgotten inheritance somewhere..

iam treating this family trip to morroco as my graduation trip too.
so iam indulging and splashing.
after all, money is money.
but holiday exprience, is once in a lifetime

my god, do i sound sickeningly positive or what?

The boy in striped pyjamas

2009-05-12T23:23:00.002+01:00

Realizing I cant possibly stomach another hour of day time telly, I decided to watch a dvd. I thought, iam not in a mood for something funny, or chick flick.. just something.. hmmm.. deep?

So I watched The Boy in Striped Pyjamas. Its one of those Holocaust related movie and i was like.. Iam bound to be sad, cry even. Ever since my trip to Auschwitz , everything was more real.. the sadness, the hopes that was shattered, the arrogance of the Nazi soldiers.. anyway, back to the movie.

It was one of those movie with ending so dramatic, i literally held my breath till the title rolled by! oh my god! the ending is NOT a Hollywood ending.. u know.. where everyone lived happily ever after.. no no no, it was nothing like that!

The story is about a boy named Bruno. His father was promoted as a general for a concentration camp. The whole family moved from Berlin to the countryside and Bruno had to leave his friends behind. At his new house, all there was were forest, his house and miles away a concentration camp. He could see it from his window and asked his mom ' why are the farmers weird? they seem to be dressed in pyjamas all day long'. Bruno is a keen explorer, so one day he explored the back garden, which led him to the forest and finally, to be concentration camp where he met Schmuel. Schmuel is an 8 year old boy too and they bond a friendship.. This is as far as i can say, because u do have to watch the movie!!!

But, common sense and Hollywood story telling would lead u to believe.. somehow.. bruno appeal to his father and ensure the safety of Schmuel and his family rite? or maybe the war ended and bruno and schmuel would be friends forever and everything would be ok. NO!!! nope nope nope.. not with this movie..

Iam on a quest to find the book. Apparently its been adapted from a book. aren't all the movies nowadays was originally a book?

I should be a writer.

May

2009-05-07T10:30:00.002+01:00

Its May 2009. I looked at the calendar and i cant believe April went by like a tornado.. I have to open my eyes now i think...

May promises to be such a good month.. Its Emily's birthday and sham is coming to visit!
so all in all, a promising month indeed. but then again, sometimes, when the expectation for the month is high, it usually pass by without anything exciting.. so, here's to me not expecting anything of May

Iam finally comfortable with shopping by myself. clothes shopping.
I was never the type of person who goes shopping by herself for the simple reason: decision making.
Sometimes, when u like something so much (a blouse, skirt, shoes) ure blinded by their beauty and never see the practical side.. gosh I know, iam not a shopaholic after all!
But yesterday after gym (yikes!!!!!!!), i decided its time to throw my work shoes and buy a new one. Iam telling u, finding for a comfortable yet stylish black heel is the hardest thing in the world! But i finally found 2, couldn't decided plus i know i will be wearing them every single day, so i decided to buy both (okay, maybe a little bit of a shopaholic).
Then, i saw a couple of tops. then, i was blinded by the beauty of a dress, so a friend woulda help me see the light at the end of the tunnel... sigh

Its my day off, so its dvd day today.
I got a couple of good ones during the week.. u know the ones.. the great movies u know u have to own since u will be watching it for the 1000000th time! Ironman, the dark night and the boy in striped pyjamas..

I think i need to re-arrange my bedroom.
Feng shui of the current arrangement is just.. blergh!
but holy crap do i need to unload a couple of things first..
I shall do a spring clean on my next day off i think..Chuck out all the old clothes, shoes, books.. i mean.. not chucking.. but offloading it to the charity shops.. mind u, i sitll havent offload the last load.. its still there in the spare room.. bags and bags of clothes and shoes.. oh god! get a move on!!!!!!

rite, lunch is approaching and there is nothing to eat...
its time for macaroni and cheese i think! :)

spring is in the air....

2009-04-24T00:13:00.002+01:00

SPRING

IS

HERE!!!!!!!!

I know i havent posted much, havent said much but there is this emptiness in my life which iam trying to fill. I am totally at lost. I thought i would be glad to finish uni and knowing there is no nasty exams or assignments to finish up. but i swear, i feel stupid and under-used. i somehow am starting to feel that work is actually.. hrrrmmm.. work?

ok, its the blues... one things for sure tho, the weather has been fantastic and i dont know, i think its time to do what i always wanted to do.. dancing class, Europe holiday, hell, even another trip to Thorpe park..

somehow iam glad at how different my life actually is since last year. because iam much happier, and iam doing things that i wouldnt dream off. like, deciding not to take the shortcut on my way back home from work just to make sure i would be able to listen to my favourite song on the ipod. and realizing its on shuffle, and it played an entirely different song.. songs i love, but not the one i wanted to listen to.. and going to parties alone. u know those kinda get-togethers,where the only person u know is the host. knowing myself few years back, i prolly woulda said, 'oh, i cant make it' but iam thinking, no regrets. do these things once in your life, because at the end of your life, you never want to ask yourself 'what if'

holiday. i want a holiday. i think its time i visit paivi, anna and hammy. because as faith would have it, sham decided to leave it to her last year to come and visit me.

faith. funny how things work.

'every song must end'

2009-04-11T22:38:00.002+01:00

I should start updating this blog..

but i cant be bothered.

not at this time of the nite, when all i can think of is starting that book that i bought ages ago, and left it on the bookshelf.

not when all i can think of is sleep...

i think work is draining the energy of me...I have finished uni, so work is all ive got. but if the motivation is not there, what do i do?
how do i pick myself up after a bad day at work?

i think, a new routine should be established!

wake up, rise and shine, smile and sing, shower and work. sleep :)

yes. thats life.. and oh, holidays :)

i wonder...

2009-03-26T18:37:00.001Z

I got an early surprise from Finland.
every year, my red gandalf always surprises me with a package posted from her hometown to my house.
and every year i open the package with a glee!
i love her gifts!!!!

so, what do i do?
do i open it now?
or wait till my birthday on Sunday?

wonder wonder wonder!!

iam gonna win sarah's sweepstake!

2009-03-23T23:05:00.002Z

'toooo many passwords causes confusion'

how freaking true.
i have to log in to an important web (no, nothing dirty, just to retrieve my result)
and for the life of me, i cant seem to remember what the hell is my pasword!!

holy frick on a stick!

'Throw those curtains wide'

2009-03-22T00:24:00.002Z

Elbow -One Day Like This
(Glastonbury 08)

This is why i absolutely adore live performance and live gigs.
and this is the reason i love music.
and this is the reason i love festivals.
and this is the reason why i love life.
absolute-ness

Elbow -One Day Like This

Drinking in the morning sun
Blinking in the morning sun
Shaking off the heavy one
Heavy like a loaded gun

What made me behave that way?
Using words I never say
I can only think it must be love
Oh, anyway, it's looking like a beautiful day

Someone tell me how I feel
It's silly wrong but vivid right
Oh, kiss me like the final meal
Yeah, kiss me like we die tonight

Cause holy cow, I love your eyes
And only now I see the light
Yeah, lying with me half-awake
Oh, anyway, it's looking like a beautiful day

When my face is chamois-creased
If you think I'll wink, I did
Laugh politely at repeats
Yeah, kiss me when my lips are thin

Cause holy cow, I love your eyes
And only now I see you like
Yeah, lying with me half-awake
Stumbling over what to say
Well, anyway, it's looking like a beautiful day

So throw those curtains wide!
One day like this a year'd see me right!

i think approaching 23 has finally made me sober..reality is hitting, hard
oh for f**k sake, cant i enjoy life?

2009-03-20T19:59:00.003Z

Happy birthday Hamsathvani!

You deserve all the great things in the world and i wish u all the happiness in the world..
Have a great day, not necessarily a party, but a nice celebration to usher in this new era

its a new phase of life isnt it adulthood...
much love!!

times like these makes me wish....

2009-03-17T13:21:00.002Z

iam full of beans today..
i mean, not that i ate a can of beans, but the weather has been perfect, i feel like jumping out of an aeroplane!
so i think its perfect day to do bits of shopping (what, again?) and have an evening of wii with friends.
yes, i think its the perfect evening!

first things first, i think i need to check the bank account tho.
and no, today's shopping session is NOT self indulgence!
instead, iam off to get gaby's birthday gift, mother's day card and work shoes (well, i dont count this as indulgence since we have to stick to boring black comfy shoes).

As i sit here typing this and planning my day, i feel somewhat sad.
i cant help but think of my besties in malaysia struggling with their test and assignments and life and i feel i should be there to cheer them up, but obviously i cant.

and this is ultimately makes me plan crazy weekend adventure with them, only to find the plan unfulfilled due to various reasons.

so, this time around ladies. no but's and if's
a beach getaway over the weekend in June.

rite, i ought to take a shower and get ready for the day!

cheerio!

after ages...

2009-03-15T01:27:00.004Z

As some of you know, iam now addicted to youtube-ing random videos..
well, who isnt? so.. here is.. hmm... 10% of the videos that i was watching pretty much today..

I havent heard this song for ages!
and this morning, i woke up with this song in my head. its weird how certain music just haunts u...iam sure ive posted this song before.. but hell, its tooo good to pass!

Sigur Ros- hoppipolla

Kings of Leon-Use somebody

I adore kings of leon. i adore this song and i love it even more when they do a live version.
somehow i think great bands sound better live anyway.
like oasis. wonderwall is classic.

and this tune below..
perks me up when iam driving to work in the morning...

Black Kids-Iam not gonna teach your boyfriend (how to dance)
yes, the title is a bit of a mouthful!

Bloc Party - The Prayer

Metallica - Enter Sandman

Keane - Spiralling

Duffy - Stepping Stone

Its 2am in the morning...

I need to do something more productive..
sleep.
yes.. i should head to bed now..

Oh good god!

2009-03-12T22:40:00.003Z

This is life!!
i went absolutely mental on Tuesday with Rebs on our shopping trip.
wait, actually, i was quite sensible most of the time. i purchased what i needed.. well, exclude the shoes, but hey, u cant have tooooo many pair of shoes!

AND!
I just got my results back!
hell yeah baybe! last minute studying and all those late nites on the lappy did me good!

*pats myself on my back*

slowly but surely :)

by the way, iam absolutely touched by the amount of people that keeps asking me what i want to do on my brithday or wat i might want as a present

thanx guys, but i swear, a simple card is enough for me, and a nice lunch on the green on a sunny day would be fantastic.
really :)

lets hope the weather holds up heh!

i spooked myself!

2009-03-08T23:44:00.002Z

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

this is so true, it really spooked me.

finished!

2009-03-05T22:49:00.002Z

T.I. Ft. Rihanna - Live Your Life

To tell u the truth, i dont like this song.
The numa numa intro just destroys this song for me.
but, i listened to the lyrics, and whoosh.

live your life.
i need to do this.
ive been keeping back, February was all about work and thesis.
i think the month of march just smacked reality and being 23 soon, i need to do something drastic.

so as a birthday celebration,
do any of u have any suggestions on what i should do? :)

Quick Update :)

2009-03-01T23:56:00.003Z

So, its Monday tomorrow.
i cant remember how i spent my weekend.
oh wait, i do.
WORK

nevermind...

its the final 4 days before submission day.
iam positive about it, two more chapter to go basically.
one of it is the conclusion, which i think is the easiest part..
:)

and i might just let some steam off by going out for a movie on Wednesday.
yes yes, will make sure that i work doubly hard on Monday and Tuesday tho! :)
just 30% of the work to go!
yiiiiipppeeeee!

okey, back on track,
you tube is ruining my life.
i stay up till crazy hours just youtube-ing videos.
its not healthy!

will update soon, when iam not busy..
well, maybe after submission heh? :)

have a cracking week guys!

2009-02-24T11:39:00.001Z

positive

positive

positive!

This 3 weeks will...

2009-02-18T23:46:00.002Z

This on coming 3 weeks of my life will consist of sleeping, working, eating and thesis writing.

Submission date: 6th march!

so, thats the target.
about 2 more weeks..
And iam liking the fact that word count is the last of my worries.
iam good in that department.
its the freaking survey and analyzing thats doing my head in.
fret not, iam meeting my supervisor for bit of help.

And iam liking it when the day just falls the way u plan it.
i might ask for extra days off this 2 weeks.
just so i can get on with the thesis and finish it off!

and after 6th of march, its like, i will be living a new life..

cross fingers!

Nobody said it was easy...

2009-02-15T04:12:00.003Z

The Killers - All These Things That I Have Done

Iam sure ive posted this video before, i cant seem to find it, but iam sure i have.
why?
because i dont know, this song lifts me up.
It gives me a nudge to move forward in life.
and it gives me a chance to reflect on my life.

I will be turning 23 this march.
Its not the big 3-0, no, but its pretty big for me.
23 is when ure officially an adult, this is when u get a job and start saving up for a house.
and i wonder am i on the right road?

More than that, will i ever go down that road?
Should i go down that road?
Oh, this bloody questions are a bloody headache iam telling you.
esp at 4.30 in the freaking morning!

while everyone is lost, the battle is won, with all these things that i have done

yes, all these things that i have done :)

i dont think my life is all that bad

besides, who said it was easy?

I've got it....

2009-02-14T00:24:00.002Z

Neyo ft. Jamie Foxx, Fabulous- She got her own

But its weird how i still find men being intimidated because i've got my own.

So again, music doesnt reflect reality.

*sigh*

Anyway, how's everyone been?
Hammy left me a week ago, and now iam nursing myself back to health.
I had a mmmmaaaaddd week of sickness and stye in my eye.
Yep, again, stye in my eye!
bloody hurts it does!

So it was a week of trips to the doctor, and just taking antibiotics.
Its Valentines day tomorrow, another day of 'getting rid of love stuff'
So love cards, love shaped chocolates, red roses are all out at full swing tomorrow.
And working at the front desk, i will be at the fore front of this day!
Iam sure by the end of my shift i'll be the most cynical person on earth!
well, its already happening..

It was a productive day today. i actually got started on my thesis. after abandoning it for ages!
iam feeling good!

so tell me, how have u been?

i cant believe it!

2009-02-03T02:42:00.002Z

Its hard to imagine and make sense of this!
We wish all year long that it would snow, and once it does,
whooossshh!
nothing works in this country!
the trains, bus, taxi service were all halted.
massive delays on the roads, with blizzards warning being flashed.

What is this?
and worse, it was in the forecast. we were told to expect snow showers this week ,
and still!!

but its lovely tho.. the white blanket, the silence, the adventurous walking..

its all fabulous!
when u know how to live life, its all fabulous!

Brighton...

2009-01-28T09:56:00.005Z

On Monday morning, we decided to be productive and drove down to brighton.

Trips like this gives me hope.
Hope that i would be able to do this for other friends i have promised to.
hope that my family would finally do a spot of picnic-ing.

Hammy wanted to treat herself by buying one of those big ass modern camera, so we got it.
like a kid on christmas, she opened the box, took out her brand new toy, and we headed down to the seaside for a spot of photography.

the day was spent eating, laughing, riding ghost train, laughing, posing, clicking, laughing and just all around fun.

drove like a monster, since i needed to catch dr.who (yes yes yes i know it ended million years ago. i never had a chance to catch it during the re-runs either!)

got home safely, and was happy at the photography results.

its things like this that makes me happy.
a good day out with my bestie, where there is no expectations for things.
because at the end of the day, thats when god suprises us with how good things can actually turn out.

Holiday with a difference!

2009-01-23T14:23:00.002Z

I cant believe she has been here for 3 days...
it feels like she's been hanging around the house forever!!

Greeted her on cold tuesday nite with awesome shaped balloons which deflated by wednesday morning..
went to work, came back to see her hanging around her 'temple', the computer...

Didnt do much for the next few days actually..
we went to watch slumdog millionaire yesterday and i have to say, i love the movie..
because that jamal kid (age 5-7 ) is soooo godddam cuuteeeee!!!
seeing him and the brother fight is as real as siblings can get!!!

and the soundtrack!
awesome!

we're off to the hairdressers today since i need a major 'surgery'!!!
its winter time, and its time to change the hairstyle!!!
Ham's gonna get her fringe done, and then its time for baking!!

this is a holiday with a difference!!!

but everything is made sweeter by the fact that we laugh at every single thing!!!